After about three months, I made the tough decision to leave. The daily commute and early start times left me feeling exhausted when I got back to the city. In the first few weeks, attending my usual evening runs felt impossible – I was so tired I could fall asleep while standing (or running). Although it got slightly better over time, I remained in a constant state of fatigue. My body wasn’t recovering well after runs, and my performance started to suffer. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

After missing my PR by about 30 seconds in the Santa Rosa half marathon in late August, I knew I had to make a change. Despite being in great shape before starting the job, my fitness had drastically declined over the three months of employment. The physical toll began affecting my mental health, and I finally summoned the courage to call it quits.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s been a month since then, and I had a brief stint of interviewing at new companies. I made it through a few onsite rounds and received some rejections. I even considered returning to tech, but ultimately canceled all processes. I was burnt out from juggling the new job, my real estate business, and training for a race. I didn’t have enough time for self-care, so I decided to take the rest of the year to myself. With big travel plans in December, I’d rather not start a new job before then. Once I return, I\u2019ll figure out which direction to move forward.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am learning to cope with just \u201cbeing\u201d. I\u2019m a doer and have always lived life at full-throttle, curating every day for maximum efficiency. It\u2019s a jarring feeling to stop and be idle. However, even with less \u201cdoing\u201d, my days are still packed full. Self-care is more involved and time-consuming than I ever gave it credit for, and I’m spending my days doing just that. I finally have time to catch up on organizing, cleaning, reading, writing (this blog!), managing finances, knitting, and more. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

This wraps up my crazy year so far, with more changes than I (and my friends \ud83d\ude05) can keep up with. With less than two months until the end of the year, I hope to find some peace in my chaotic life. And to finish up way overdue blog posts. Stay tuned!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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